cantorturemewithbothhands.
“Christian!”Isplutterandgaspmylaughingprotest.Hehasnever,ever
tickledmebefore.Fuck—stop!Ithrashmyheadfromsidetoside,tryingto
wiggleoutfromunderhim,gigglingandpushingbothofhishandsaway,but
he’sunrelenting—grinningdownatme,enjoyingmytorment.
“Christian,stop!”Ipleadandhestopssuddenly.Grabbingbothofmyhands,
heholdsthemdownoneithersideofmyheadwhileloomingoverme.Iam
pantingandbreathlesswithlaughter.Hisbreathingmirrorsmine,andhe
gazesdownatmewith…what?Mylungsstopfunctioning.Wonder?Love?
Reverence?Holycow.Thatlook!
“You.Are.So.Beautiful,”hebreathes.
Istareupathim,athisdear,deardivineface;bathedintheintensityofhis
gaze,andit’sasifhe’sseeingmeforthefirsttime.Leaningdown,hecloses
hiseyesandkissesme,enraptured.Hisresponseisawake-upcalltomy
libido…seeinghimlikethis,undone,byme.Ohmy.Hereleasesmyhands
andcurlshisfingersaroundmyheadandintomyhair,holdingmegentlyin
place,andmybodyrisesandfillswithmyarousal,respondingtohiskiss.
Andsuddenlythenatureofhiskissalters,nolongersweet,reverentialand
admiring,butcarnal,deepanddevouring—histongueinvadingmymouth,
takingnotgiving,hiskisspossessingadesperateneedyedge.Asdesire
coursesthroughmyblood,awakeningeverymuscleandsinewinitswake,I
feelafrissonofalarm.
OhFifty,what’swrong?
Heinhalessharplyandgroans.“Oh,whatyoudotome,”hemurmurs,lost
andraw.Hemovessuddenly,lyingdownontopofme,pressingmeintothe
mattress—onehandcuppingmychin,theotherskimmingovermybody,my
breast,mywaist,myhip,andaroundmybehind.Hekissesmeagain,pushing
hislegbetweenmine,raisingmyknee,andgrindingagainstme,hiserection
strainingagainstourclothesandmysex.Igaspandmoanagainsthislips,
losingmyselftohisferventpassion.Idismissthedistantalarmbellsinthe
backofmymind,knowingthathewantsme,thatheneedsme,andthatwhen
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expression.Ikisshimwithrenewedabandon,runningmyfingersthroughhis
hair,fistingmyhands,holdingtight.Hetastessogoodandsmellsof
Christian,myChristian.
Abruptly,hestops,standsup,andpullsmeoffthebedsothatIamstandingin
frontofhim,dazed.Heundoesthebuttononmyshortsandkneelsquickly,